by Luciano Ferrara
The best board games came with no instruction.
The leaflet with the laws was always lost in all the shuffling,
So you made your own rules and proved with indirect deductions
That absolute power leads to absolute corruption.
And that's the research I think I've been conducting with my spiritual reconstruction.
I'm giving away the power, overindulging in my honesty,
Spilling my guts, giving ammo to all my enemies
Leaving the words hanging, cliff notes in the grand scheme of things.
I need to regroup, and reclaim my confidence.
Two seats separating us on the same grand line,
Two words, no emphasis, but an edge like a knife.
No budding exchanges, our fruits choked by the vine, a victimless crime
So I shot blades and lasers from the corners of my eyes,
Then closed them, took a deep breath, drained the glass, sighed,
Realized I've just magnified a miniscule plight
And made a mountain from a molehill for the millionth night
This week and it's weak to be so needy you speak with your pet more often than any people you meet
It's defeat, you're repeating the same things, tongue in cheek,
And even your subconscious is sick of hearing you seeth through your teeth,
So stand up.
Dust off the dirt once you climb to your feet
And leave, no goodbye, it's all good, just discretely exit the scene with your hands in your jeans
Time to refresh, cross the street to replete with whiskey and pinball machines.
The next morning it all hurts, my head, my heart, mostly my head
But there's a silver lining sewn in with liquor-soaked thread:
It's time to start over, so at least this can be put to bed, to rest, to death, never spoken of again
And I can attempt to try meeting new people like I'd planned.
Until my phone goes off and I feel like I'm overreacting again, and man,
Let me tell you, most times
LUCIANO FERRARA is a junior at SUNY Albany and a member of the English Honor Society. Excelling in creative writing and fiction, Luciano is also an accomplished lyricist and songwriter. He is currently working on a fantasy novel and hopes to graduate with honors from UAlbany, and attend grad school in an effort to become an author and an important part of the modern literary world. He is a contributing writer for the music press site The Alternative and is releasing a solo record, "The Divide", on May 4th.